it was an accident that I found that picture.
and you, a random stranger said it was
"beautiful and eye opening and kinda depressing"
and all I could think was:::you have no fucking idea.
I cringed but didn't turn away, didn't navigate
elsewhere for a while because more thoughts started
dripping into my mind:::like:::
this is too familiar. why did you even capture this?
why is this on the internet? why is this being
passed around and talked about so openly with
everyone saying how sad it is when they really
don't know? but mostly I was thinking about how
I would do that. If I didn't have to hide,
I would do that.